He opened the front door and held out his arm.
“Just put your hand on my arm.
It’ll be easier for you to keep your balance than if
I put my arm around you.”
I looked up into his eyes and didn’t see anything there that shouldn’t be there but
I was wondering what had happened.
But you know how when you’re unsure about something and you figure it should be one way but it’s not goin along with that and you get all nervous.
Well, that’s how
I was riding to the hospital with Jimmy but he didn’t seem to be anything like he had been the day before.
Finally it just got to me and
I figured,
“What the fuck” if he was gonna eventually go back to bein pissed at me
I’d just as soon know it now.
“Jimmy, I’m sorry that
I surprised you with that shit yesterday.
It’s just that
I didn’t want you to be defending me to Connor and Chase when
I knew that
I wasn’t what you wanted me to be.”